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Now, Horace, I Warned You About THINKIN'!

Every once in a while I get this peculiar sensation that some part of my brain is chugging along at full power, thinking up a storm about something, but that it won't tell the rest of my brain (including my consciousness) just what it is.

This always bears watching out for, because there have been times in the past when it indicated that my brain was trying to deal with "issues" that my conscious mind just couldn't face at the time and it sent me off into depression. Most of the time, however, it's not really a problem.

Sometimes, in fact, it comes just before a giant spurt of creative activity. The novels I've written were preceded by a lot of subconscious composition, which then translated into a couple of weeks of frenzied writing.

And then occasionally, it's like a hard drive randomly churning like mad, slowing down the system, and then it mysteriously goes away and you find yourself asking your monitor, "What the heck was THAT about?" I think that scenario is the most frustrating, because I always find myself wondering if there isn't some ticking bomb in my subconscious that's going to jump out and yell "Boo!" when I'm trying to deal with something else.

So here's a list of what's on my mind right now, for my own reference, in no particular order. Any or all of these could be what my brain is stewing on, or it might be something else entirely. But at least putting 'em down will give them some structure:

  • SJ is coming up on a big crossroads, which requires a lot of attention to do it properly.

  • A member of the family is having serious health issues, and it's got Laurie stressed. But there's not much I can do to help.

  • MFF is this weekend, and I would like to have gone, but it just wasn't feasible this year. Too much other stuff going on, and I've been to at least one con too many this year.

  • We're looking with serious intent at buying a house, which we've never done before and don't know how it will impact our finances.

  • I'm having a little creative block on the next NN storyline.

  • Work is being all up in my face the past week.

  • I need to exercise.

  • Gaming is so sporadic as to be all but nonexistent at the moment.

  • Ditto art, not including the regular SJ strips.

  • Ditto writing.

  • Holiday season is approaching like a runaway train, and needs attending to.

...I think that's everything that makes the meter move. There's lots of other little things that I don't really care about ('my desk is a mess'), but they're not on the same scale. Hopefully putting them all down like this will help me tackle them in small chunks and start to make progress.

-The Gneech


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Nov. 13th, 2006 01:22 pm (UTC)
The first and fourth paragraps were precisely why I could not sleep until 6 AM this morning and then had nightmares about rattlesnakes, getting my head blown off by a Mexican bum, and being beamed into deep space by Yin (yes, Yin) in order to destroy the galaxy.

Lizard Rat out.
Sleep deprived wolf in Albany NY
Nov. 13th, 2006 01:50 pm (UTC)
gaming this weekend, tho. 9_9
Nov. 13th, 2006 02:17 pm (UTC)
Woohoo! =)

Nov. 13th, 2006 02:20 pm (UTC)
*frolics at the notion* -Frisk
Nov. 13th, 2006 05:06 pm (UTC)
My victory icon pwns yours. :D

Lizard Rat out.
Silly Overcaffinated Wolf in Albany NY
Nov. 13th, 2006 01:54 pm (UTC)
Wow, you do have a lot on your mind, and sharing these things should help, even if it's only to put things in order for yourself.
Nov. 13th, 2006 02:22 pm (UTC)
My brain does that all the time. Makes noises in the background, but never tells me what the heck it's doing back there. If I looked hard enough, I could probably find several LJ entries that were about just that. I've kinda gotten used to it actually. I call them the echoes in my mind. Good things usually come from it, but the frequency leaves something to be desired (of good things coming, of course). -Frisk
Nov. 13th, 2006 02:29 pm (UTC)
As for buying a house, you have my sympathies there. I was lucky, and got one just as the rates were just beginning to go up, so i got a good deal on my mortgage. It certainly is a whole other world from renting, as suddenly all the responsibilities of leaky roofs, termite infestations, and exploding appliances are now yours.

There is a secondary kind of home insurance wich protects against such problems, and something to possibly consider, if you're getting an older home where the water heater or furnace might decide to give out with a wheeze, or possibly a splash, in the wee hours of the night.

On the plus side, the interest paid on a house is tax deductable, which usually means a nice fat check from the government, or fewer deductions during the year, depending on how you choose to deal with it. Either way, it ends up working out to you getting back approximately one mortgage payment a year, in most cases. I advocate saving the first one, and setting aside an "oh crap!" fund for the house, both for emergency repairs, and needed upkeep.

Now that i've probably caused the severe contraction of some key portions of anatomy, the good side is that, should you find a real estate agent you like, the process of getting a house isn't all that bad. There are a lot out there, and now that prices are topping out, and even beginning to fall, it's starting to look more like a buyer's market again. This means that the smart money is in saving as much as possible for a downpayment, and taking the time to pick the house you really like. the longer you wait, the lower the prices will get, and the better the chance that your rates might go down, too.
Nov. 13th, 2006 02:36 pm (UTC)
Side note, i always remember the proper spelling of mortgage by breaking it down to mort gage... death measure. i.e. by the time you're finished paying it off, you'll probably be dead.

Cynical? Me? nawwww...
Nov. 13th, 2006 02:53 pm (UTC)
House Hunting
Be very very quiet, we're hunting houses....

Just as a short warning, buying a house will always be about 20% more expensive than you plan for. (Talking about closing costs, legal fees and the rest of it.) When I bought my house, bout 6 years ago, I got socked with a buncha hidden little costs that I wasn't ready for. Before you even make an offer, get an idea from your attorney (Or, if your agent has done a lot of closings, he/she can give you an idea) of the actual costs so you don't get blindsided.
Nov. 13th, 2006 02:59 pm (UTC)
I own a condominimum, myself. It's got the best of both worlds. You build up equity and get the big tax write-off at the end of the year, but if the water heater blows up, you call a guy and say, "Yo, get in here and fix it!" and he does.

The downside is the condominimum association fee which is paid monthly. For me it is $300 per month. That, however, pays for trash removal, water, gas heat and hot water, sewer, snow removal, landscaping, any and all repairs to structure or major appliances -- in short, everything except electricity, phone, and cable.

So between mortgage and condo fee, I pay about what I would pay in rent on a similarly-sized place, but I get to take two exemptions on my taxes each year, which puts more money in my bank account.

And to counter cynical Sirfox, mine is a 15-year mortgage. I really hope I won't be dead by the time it is paid off!
Nov. 13th, 2006 03:23 pm (UTC)
The one thing I would suggest is to try to avoid dealing with homeowner's associations whenever possible. If you have to do so, scope things out to see how strict they get.

Sorry not to see you at MFF, but hey, I know what it's like to have con burnout. Take the rest of the year for friends and family. Turkey Day is coming! =};-3
Nov. 13th, 2006 06:23 pm (UTC)
Boy, do I second that motion...

Homeowners' Associations sound good on paper, but in practice they're another example of Kissinger's Maxim about vicious politics vs. small stakes. (The actual quote, of course, was "University politics are so vicious precisely because the stakes are so small", but the general idea applies to any situation where people with big egos are jockeying for the position of Big Fish in a small pond.)

Worse, they tend to attract the Gladys Kravitzes of the world. Nosy neighbors with nothing better to do than to patrol the neighborhood measuring the height of your grass with a micrometer, using a stopwatch to time to the exact second how long your boat has been parked in the driveway, and using Pantone color swatches to make sure your curtains are the precise shade of beige permitted in the covenant clauses.

Can you tell I don't think much of homeowners' associations? :)
Nov. 13th, 2006 03:42 pm (UTC)
:::Hugs::: Well, hopefully work will back down. But oy. Those holidays are going to be another timesink, aren't they? x.x

Good luck prioritizing!
Nov. 13th, 2006 07:34 pm (UTC)
It sounds like you could use a bit of a break there, don'cha'know.

Maybe you should think about letting one of those irons cool down a bit? Unless you are like me, and you need a lot going on in order to function well. In that case, pick up the pace!

Have a great day!

Nov. 13th, 2006 07:45 pm (UTC)
Whoa, steady there Gneech. You're starting to sound like you've got as much on your plate as I do and you know all to well what that means.

I know what you mean about phantom brain ops. Sitting there saying "Okay, spill it. What the *bleep* are you thinking about" and all it does is stick out its tongue at you if you're lucky. Still for the times it's done that and great insight or inspiration have come it's been worth it.

I approve of what you said in that getting a list will help you get a handle on things. Also there may be some things about to happen that will help in certain areas. I certainly need to email you on one of them.

Oh yes, and if Laurie or you needs someone to talk with you know my number.
Nov. 13th, 2006 10:18 pm (UTC)
I echo Kamau's remarks..
except if you possibly can, take a nice long walk...

and if you want an extra set of eyes to start combing through places, you know where to find me!

Nov. 14th, 2006 01:03 am (UTC)
Gawwwwwww, I was really hoping to see you there too! (MFF) I hope things get less stressful and that the holiday season is a joyous one ^.^
Nov. 14th, 2006 07:28 am (UTC)
Good luck with alla them goals... being organized about 'em like this izza good start!
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