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Calling a Sickie

I am a night owl. Always been, since I was a child. I inherited this from my mother. Sometimes it's annoying, and sometimes it's incredibly annoying. You meadowlarks have no idea how nice you've got it.

For the past two nights, my body has been very stubbornly being wide awake at midnight, one a.m., two a.m. — not just awake, but raring to go. I always have some trouble shutting down at the end of the day, but this is ridiculous.

It's made even more ridiculous by the fact that I am at least theoretically supposed to be at work in the morning and alert and productive during the day — an idea that my body just points at and laughs.

This constant state of forcing myself to be awake when my body and brain both want to be asleep, or trying to force myself to sleep when my body and brain both want to be awake, is having other side-effects, such as Wrong Word Syndrome.

You know how your aunt keeps getting your name and your brother's name reversed? And how annoyed she is by it, because she knows your name is John and his is DeOrman but can't stop herself from calling you DeOrman anyway because it just jumps out when she tries to call you John? Or how you try to say "keyboard" and it comes out "mouse," even though you know damn well you don't type on the mouse? Or worse you want to say "keyboard" but there's just a big empty hole in your sentence where "keyboard" is supposed to be because your brain won't retrieve the right word and send it to the mouth? I'm getting that. A lot. My brain is tired and can't operate its own filters because I am supposed to be asleep from 7 a.m. – 3 p.m., but that's exactly what life doesn't allow and so I snatch bits of sleep around the edges instead.

Net result, I was even more dead than usual this morning and just wrote off today as a bad job. I'm awake now, more or less, but it's mostly by virtue of caffeine and ibuprofen. Maybe if I just spend the day in relatively brainless tasks such as cleaning up the house and doing laundry, those parts of my brain that want so badly to be shut down during the daylight hours can indulge themselves without throwing off my sleep schedule any more than it already is.

Maybe.

Meh.

-The Gneech

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torakiyoshi
Jan. 5th, 2011 03:34 pm (UTC)
You need a job that lets you work swings, it sounds like.
the_gneech
Jan. 5th, 2011 04:09 pm (UTC)
Or just be independently wealthy! I could handle that.

-TG
the_mcp
Jan. 5th, 2011 03:39 pm (UTC)
Have you tried using melatonin?
the_gneech
Jan. 5th, 2011 04:08 pm (UTC)
Yes; very little effect, alas.

-TG
laurie_robey
Jan. 5th, 2011 06:54 pm (UTC)
You may need a higher dose. We got the lowest dose pill so that we could take more if we needed it.
hantamouse
Jan. 7th, 2011 12:40 am (UTC)
Melatonin makes me wake up every 20 minutes all night long, and dizzy when I do get up. Worse than useless.
radbaron
Jan. 5th, 2011 03:46 pm (UTC)
Have you tried moving to Britain?
the_gneech
Jan. 5th, 2011 04:09 pm (UTC)
No, but I've considered it...

-TG
jamesbarrett
Jan. 5th, 2011 04:50 pm (UTC)
Hey, I do the same thing, except I have a job that lets me do more of what my body and brain want me to do than you have. -Frisk
jadedfox
Jan. 5th, 2011 05:56 pm (UTC)
Oh believe me, I understand. I work the 8am-4pm shift at my office, and I'm LUCKY if I can get to sleep before midnight. Last night I actually never got to sleep. I was up staring at the ceiling until my alarm went off at 6am.
sirfox
Jan. 5th, 2011 07:19 pm (UTC)
I share your pain. Right now, i'm sharing it with jetlag.
mammallamadevil
Jan. 5th, 2011 07:43 pm (UTC)
do this to your body clock....
as needed....but, then again, it's easier for some then others...

MLD
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