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Do the Voices in My Head Bother You?

I meant to watch Dr. Who last night … it was the last really feasible window to do it in before my trip. And I just flat-out forgot. So I need to either carve out an hour for it sometime today or tomorrow, or be on vigilant guard for spoilers during the entirety of my U.K. trip.

I know this doesn’t sound like much of a crisis, but it’s sorta symptomatic of how things are with me right now. I’m forgetful, easily distracted, and feel like I spend a lot of my time fighting my way to a place where I can sit down and engage in something mindless … usually a sign that my brain is chewing on too much.

Some of it, I suspect, is continued grief on a subconscious level; my family in general and Dad in particular have been prominent in my dreams lately, and earlier this week I woke up wishing I could give my dad a hug. (And really, any time I can remember my dreams, it means my sleep is not very good. Dreams and I don’t have a happy relationship.) And some of it is also just the never-ending jumble of noise that’s always in my head and occasionally just wears me out. When the jumble of noise can be channeled into something productive, I get a book or something out of it … but the rest of the time, it’s just noise and it makes me tired.

I’m hoping that when the U.K. trip is off the table, that will free up some mental bandwidth and allow me to focus on getting some other things done and even — gasp — do some real writing again. I really need to put some serious work into finding a real project, settling on it, and getting somewhere with it. I feel like I’m spinning my wheels right now.

-The Gneech

Originally published at gneech.com. You can comment here or there.


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May. 4th, 2011 07:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :) I'm tryin' to!

May. 4th, 2011 04:41 pm (UTC)
If The hotel Wifi is up to it, I can connect the laptop and get Doctor Who using BBC I player, so if you have the time (ha!) you can watch it at Confuzzled. I'm hoping to do that on Saturday anyway for the new episode.

Edited at 2011-05-04 04:42 pm (UTC)
May. 4th, 2011 07:02 pm (UTC)
I have a 3G mifi and already made an offer of a laptop and iPlayer to watch the next episode on. But... It'd be a whole lot easier to bring along my digital recording of the episode. (Can bring along the Dr.Who Confidential episode too.)
May. 4th, 2011 07:28 pm (UTC)
See response to Canis Rufus, above. :) Thanks anyhow!

May. 4th, 2011 07:28 pm (UTC)
Cons = no time for stuff like TV shows, even Dr. Who! Thanks anyhow. :)

May. 4th, 2011 04:57 pm (UTC)
Why not download the episode and watch on the flight on the iPad?
May. 4th, 2011 07:29 pm (UTC)
'cos that costs $3 and I'm cheap. ;) I have a DVRed copy for free!

May. 4th, 2011 07:57 pm (UTC)
I'm not entirely sure the suggestion was to *pay* for the episode. ;}
May. 4th, 2011 08:05 pm (UTC)
Yeah, but Dr. Who is readily available legally and cheap. I'm not gonna abuse that!

May. 4th, 2011 09:25 pm (UTC)
you're not cheap, you're frugal...
although, I figured you had an iTunes account?

May. 4th, 2011 09:28 pm (UTC)
Re: you're not cheap, you're frugal...
I do have one ... but the Who eps still cost! :)

May. 4th, 2011 10:53 pm (UTC)
I know about the grief thing. I keep seeing Jimmy in my own dreams, for better and for worse (much like our living relationship. ;) ).

I hope you get the time to find the calm and focus you need.
May. 4th, 2011 11:51 pm (UTC)
Yeah, but how cool will it be to get to watch Dr. Who actually on BBC?!
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