December 31st, 2002


Hmm ... That's a Poser...

I want to do some sketches today during off moments, but unfortunately, I have no idea what I want to sketch. I could ask around for ideas, but I've found in the past that this doesn't generally receive helpful responses. People either say, "Uh, I dunno..." or they name off their particular single-minded fascination, which chances are, are way beyond the PG-13 rating of what I'm looking to draw, or I've drawn for them at least once already.

The sketches are for tomorrow's Holiday Grab Bag, so they should at least, if they aren't directly related to SJ, be vaguely furry in nature. I drew a cool development sketch of Faradawn yesterday that I'd like to flesh out into a full-blown picture, but an elvish archer is about as unrelated to SJ as anything could be.

As much as I love SJ, I must admit I do resent the way it uses up all the attention I'd like to pay to other things sometimes. I am not a speedy worker on anything, and the ever-hungry nature of comic strips means that if I don't work fast, then I must work fairly constantly. It's not the fault of SJ specifically ... it would be the same if I was doing NeverNever or Whistling In the Dark on a regular basis too.

I'd like to expand my repertoire; I'd like to spend more time writing, or doing larger furry art, or fantasy art, or even just catching up on my reading (I have way too many unread books on my shelf). And let's not forget that I'm now spending two evenings a week on my Kung Fu (the class is 1 hr 15 min, but I spend the rest of the evening recovering).

Bah! There's too much to do! And not enough time to do it in!

That drives me nuts. :P

-The Gneech

Words of Wisdom From My Counselor

"Happiness is being understood."

I just realized, sorta out of the blue, the truth of this. A lot of the time, I feel like I've been dropped on the Earth from another planet or something; most other people baffle me -- or are baffled by me. I think what I like most about the people I like most, is that I feel like we're on the same wavelength, or at least one that's very similar.

My recurrent feelings of loneliness are related to this, I think. There are precious few people I feel like I have true communication with, and when I encounter somebody like that, I crave their attention and company -- but circumstances, the necessities of life, or even just the desire not to make them sick of me often leaves that craving frustrated.

Heh. All that angst, and it boils down to a ten-year-old whining, "Nobody understands me!" Le sigh. And here I was hoping it was something at least a little more sophisticated! Take THAT, vanity!

-The Gneech
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