March 28th, 2005



Greg stared at the mug of cocoa sitting on his chest and said, "You know, sometimes I wish I was sexy. But then I wonder what I would do with it if I was."

"Hmm?" said Alex, fingers tapping away on his laptop. "What are you going on about over there?"

"Brigid's right," Greg told him. "I don't know a thing about love. A lot of codependent frippery, that's what I know about. Disappointment, resentment, longing, and jealousy, that's what I know about. I'm a sad case, that's my opinion."

"Well then," said Alex. "Write about that."

"No! Of course I'm not going to write about that! Who'd want to read it?" Greg lifted the cocoa and sat up from his slump on the couch. "Besides, it's so cliché!"

"Maybe it would help somebody else feel like they weren't quite as alone," Alex suggested.

"Bah," said Greg. "Nobody morose is ever alone, all they've got to do is look around. I want to brighten up the place, not revel in my own pathos."

Alex shrugged, and continued typing. "Well then, I guess you'll have to get out there and fall in proper love, won't you?"

Greg rolled his eyes. "Thank you, that's a terrific plan. But look at me! I'm as attractive as day-old bread."

"Oh, I dunno," Alex chuckled. "Even day-old bread can be cute if it's cut into animal shapes."

Greg blinked. "That's possibly one of the most surreal things you've ever said to me," he commented.

"Well, I've been taking notes when you weren't looking."

-The Gneech

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I felt like crap today. -.- I was tired, I was in the dumps most of the day, and the ol' internal monologue was stuck in an unwanted rut. In short, it felt like a flashback to 2001, and without wanting to be too dramatic, that's a place in my mental history I don't want to go again. It was also effecting me physically; by the afternoon my muscles were achey and I wasn't sure I didn't have a fever coming on.

Writing the fictionlet helped, but when learning to self-treat my depression I found that the most effective medicine for quick results was a long nap, so laurie_robey and I left at 4:00. The moment I was riding in the car, I was out -- and when we got home, I just went straight upstairs and slept until 6:00.

I woke up feeling much better, so I managed to get a little art in, and watch a little "Whose Line Is It Anyway?" Now I'm just sorta vegging in front of the computer screen until I'm sleepy enough to get an actual whole night's rest.

Hopefully, I'll feel better tomorrow. I didn't even get to enjoy today's thunderstorms.

It's weird; lately I find myself wishing for sunny weather all the time. It used to be that I didn't care, except for loving thunderstorms. I don't know what's caused the shift, although it seems to be related to watching anime and drawing beach scenes. *shrugs*

G'nite, all.

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