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August 20th, 2009

Writer's Block: Pecking Order

Are you an oldest, youngest, middle, or only child? How do you think it has influenced your personality?


I am the third of three; my brother is 12 years older than I am, and my sister is three years older than he is, so I'm sort of a strange hybrid of "third child" and "only child." I only have a few vague memories of when my sister was still in the house, and for various reasons my brother and I never really did much "filial bonding."

As for how it influenced my personality, it's obviously hard to say with any kind of objectivity. My parents were both in their late '40s and '50s and so didn't have a lot of energy for playing, my sister was gone and my brother was off doing stuff more appropriate to his age; we lived back on a wooded lot separated from the rest of the neighborhood, and so I spent the majority of my childhood free-time alone. I was also a depressive (undiagnosed) starting somewhere around age eight or so. So I became a major introvert, and even when I was around other kids I was an outcast.

Except I'm a highly sociable introvert and was often (but not always) the smartest person in the room — so when the class was broken up into groups for projects for example, everyone immediately turned to me and said, "Okay, tell us what to do."

The combination of socially-awkward introvert, depressive lack of self-esteem, and being the "go to guy," eventually instilled into me a somewhat imperious manner; there were plenty of times while I was trying to figure it all out that I pretty much came off as an arrogant bastard. Not because I thought I was above everyone else — far from it — but because people seemed to like me best when I was telling them what to do.

I like to think, and certainly hope, that I don't come off as an arrogant bastard any more. I'm not sure exactly when I changed — I'm sure laurie_robey was instrumental in it — but I've learned to couch my "telling people what to do" in terms of suggestions, observations, or Socratic questions; i.e., as an advisor or counselor rather than a commander. And even better, I've also learned that most of the time the wisest course is just to keep my big mouth shut.

Wow, this one got away from me, didn't it?

-The Gneech

Dear Future Me:

Futureme.org is a neat idea. :)

Pastme.org would be neater, if somebody could figure out a way to make it work. Me of the past needs to hear from me now a lot more than me of the future, I suspect.

-The Gneech

Lest There Be Confusion...

No, Buddha and Dasher have not agreed to a cease-fire; what we've got instead is a sort of Pax Romana, where they don't fight because we physically prevent them from doing so, usually by virtue of Buddha being held in a lap while Dasher runs around like an idiot (which is the main way Dasher runs around).

They do interact in other ways ... separated by doors for instance, or with one in a pen while the other is loose, and on those occasions the pair of them have a pretty strong "Pinky and the Brain" vibe. But if left to their own devices, they still end up under a piece of furniture growling and occasionally swatting at each other.

-The Gneech

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AAAAAGH! *flail*

The new episode of Tales of Monkey Island is out, and the opening sequence is AWESOME! I wanna play I wanna play, but I gotta DRAW!

And do game prep for the weekend!

And laundry!

AAAAAAAGH! *flail* TOO MUCH TO DO!

*freaks out*

-The Gneech

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