August 11th, 2011

Kero Power Tie

Feeling Much Better -- Thanks, Internet Peeps! :)

As you probably know, last week I really put my foot in it, and it's been bugging me ever since. Not so much because of the actual event (although I'm certainly not happy about that), but because of the way it came at me so hard from a completely blind spot, that it completely discomboblled my sense of self and what little confidence I have, leaving me afraid to say or do anything because I didn't want to create another explosion of hurt feelings. I have some deep-rooted issues that I don't talk about much, but this incident hammered them like an exposed nerve.

The counselor who helped me through my darkest times with depression in the past once said to me, "It's simple: when you repress, you depress," and it's certainly true of me. It may not seem like it, given my preference for keeping a cheerful exterior, but I was in a pretty bleak spot for a while.

However, that's passed now, and I feel like myself again. There are many various reasons for this, but the number one reason is all of my various internet pals who have gone out of their way to cheer me up, and I'd really like to thank you all. In particular, mammallamadevil, paradisacorbasi, @Boursin, everybody who participated in this thread, and especially my beloved laurie_robey.

You are all awesome. :) And I'm very grateful. :)

-The Gneech