Frankly, I'm tired. I guess you'd call it "grief fatigue?" I'm sorta like, "Did I spend all those years and all that effort mastering my depression, just to end up saddled with a state of perma-grief? Not cool!"
Grief, of course, is a process, so it's not like I can just switch it on or off. But I've also reached the point where I don't want to go through the Five Stage Dance again. Not sure what (if anything) I can do to fast-forward the process, but I'm sure as heck gonna try. I'm sick of it.