Once upon a time I used to post several times a week about what was going on in Gneechland, with varying levels of entertainment value and/or snark. I'd enthuse about minutiae or gripe about the daily grind, or occasionally go on ill-advised rants about things that got under my metaphorical fingernails.
And now, for whatever reason... I don't. And I find that curious. What impelled me to start journaling in the first place? And what brought it to a stop?
Some of it is the venue. When I want to just toss up a link or a bon mot, Twitter is much better suited to that sort of thing. If I want to share a video or a cool piece of artwork, Tumblr works better. Although they've made some interface improvements, LiveJournal is still pretty well stuck in 2001, which means text and basic HTML.
I think also in my case, I simply wanted to stop talking about what was going on in my life, because for a while there it was frankly bleak and I didn't want the whole of my output to be wailing and gnashing of teeth. There is a lot of truth to the notion that what you project to the world becomes what you attract, and I didn't want my life to become a never-ending litany of grief, depression, and sadness.
But, things are getting better now. :) Money is still tight just at the moment, but I'm back in the saddle at Starbucks and Laurie has some very hopeful prospects in the works, so I expect that will fix itself shortly. Suburban Jungle is still stalled, alas, but for a good reason: I have been spending the past months furiously writing a novel (and a good one, I'd like to think), which I plan to start shopping around to publishers by the end of the year.
So hopefully I'll get back into the habit of journaling again, now that I have happier things to say. :) But I'll warn you beforehand:
- I am all about setting boundaries these days. I used to be willing to put up with a lot more BS, passive-aggressive behavior, or abuse than I am now. I also used to be a lot more eager to jump in and try to fix everybody's problems, which attracted a lot of what I call "psychic vampires" into my life. These days, not so much.
- I have been going through, for lack of a better term, a certain amount of "spiritual awakening," as evidenced by my recent posts about meditation and past-life regression. This is kind of an awkward subject to talk about reasonably, as people tend to fall into two knee-jerk categories: the mocking deniers, and the pyramid-power rainbow crystal true believers. I am in neither of these categories, myself. But I do think there's more going on than meets the eye, and I am looking into it.
- My politics have shifted to the left over the past few years. Seeing the real-world results of the U.S.'s relentless march to the right has convinced me more than ever that it's completely the wrong direction. You're welcome to disagree with me on that all you want, but do it in your own space, please. :)
Now all that's out of the way, if there's anyone still out there, hello! And welcome to what I hope will be the return of my LiveJournal. ;) For your patience, have a Korra video.